soul wandering

Querida Raquelita,

chica, chica, chica, my darling amorcita, y soul wandering Raquelita, this isn’t an unfamiliar feeling en tu vida. you’ve been here a many times before. in fact, you were profoundly immersed in this obscure, muddied, and incomprehensible space nine years ago or so.

nine years ago or so, you were immersed in what many label this ambiguity as a dark night of the soul phase in your life. the night grew so dark that las estrellas began to shine revelations upon your deepest shadows.

you were consistently indecisive in taking the next steps con tu propio camino after graduating high school.

at the time, you thought that you would never be found, that you would never discover yourself. yet, really, when you feel the most lost, that’s actually el señal del universo y de adentro, that you’re just about to be found. you cannot have one opposite feeling without the other.

you must allow yourself to sink into this deep abyss of wandering and constant, unraveling curiosity about the unknown…

for that’s not even when one is found ...even better, it’s when one begins peeling back their layers to see and feel who they actually are at their core. your raw, vulnerable and delicate realness subtly begins to surface and evolve with a new light that it’s now introduced to.

it’s permitting your bare truth to continuously be present and create with the experiences, environments, and encounters which the universo transpires alongside you. these daily, current curiosities are tugging in the name of transformative creation.

the creation is yours and that’s the beauty of our innately imaginative mundo.

if you refuse to recognize the darker space between las estrellas, you’re refusing to participate in both your own transmuting and the collective’s evolution.

as Thomas Moore even highlights about this ever-evolving ritmo de vida, “life has it’s ebb and flow… it builds up and then it clears out. you need this rhythm, just as you need to breathe in and breathe out. like your body, your soul gets filled with pollutants. dark moments are part of the process in which you fill up and empty out.” listening and feeling into the entire rhythm is essential.

just when you accept the resistance of each ebb as heightened resilience and your scrambled thoughts as your loudest silence, all starts to flow and be felt for the better.

with that, remind yourself that it’s more than okay to feel so-called “lost”. you’re bound to become your rawest Realness through this meandering, muddy soul wandering called “la vida,” mi Raquelita.

con mucha paz, amor y agradecimiento,

Raquelita